mrt experience

Today's timetable super sian!Morning got pe...like wat i've predicted...e teachers let us play wat we wan...ahah!And it turn out to be basketball!I hear e word "basketball" onli i'll run lo...dun even need to watse any time to persuade me to join.See xiao xi they all play for a while then we went to e gym to slack.Well...at least i went to e gym for e 1st time in my life!Then i cycled for like 45 min...butt v pain...think i completed 16 plus km.Haha!Really can reach east coast park liao!After recess...time seems to pass by soooooooo slowly...cos of e boring lessons ba.During phy lesson,e guys asked mr lim and IQ qsn.This qsn hor...in e morning tt time yihui already asked me.And guess wat?I got it correct!So proud of myself!Mr lim still say he FBI...so simple also dunno!Whahaha!After sch, went old chang kee to buy some food to eat while waiting for kex.I was thinking if he appears now i'll confirmed get choked by my fishball.Mei xiang dao he really came together wif kex!I was like"GOD!".Then e 3 of us hurried up to e mrt and walked down in e direction tt we think he went.Met our class guys on e way but at tt pt of time i was onli concentrating on wat's in front of us.Haha!Saw his shoes...and we noe we're getting near...my heart was racing...As usual he gave tt stupid face when he saw us...hehe!but i was really happy!Sat down opp him and xiao xi started gifing out sweets.Toked for a while then it's time to alight.Didn't look at him throughout...said gdbye to xiao xi and kex...but nvr say to him...haiz!I just can't oversome my shyness!When we sat down opp him i was already acting v abnormally...Haiya!Wo tai xun le!Haha...nonetheless i was glad to haf met him!

i'm a bad woman

ET came back to sch today and bought 5 pizzas for e class.Heard tt it cost him 100 over bucks?Shocking sia!tt 1 piece of pizza and a cup of coke helped me pull thru e afternoon cos we didn't haf lunch.Went to get maths notes during recess...saw his class hafing pe.Didn't look tt direction for long though...looking at him will just make me sigh more.Why am i feeling so miserable?I asked myself this qsn a few times already and i guess e answer is, i'm jealous?Yest xiao xi told me tt he gave kex and jac presents for their b'daes.How i wish i can also recieve a present frm him.And then i also found tt he's very active in class...a very sociable person i shud say.He will comment on movies wif his classmates very openly and happily.But i always feel tt he keeps things frm me.I guess i had to admit tt he doesn't treat me as a fren whom he will confide in or maybe just a little better than hi bye frens?I noe it's dumb to come to conclusions liddat...but all tt is happening really makes me think so.I dun understand what he thinks at all...completely no idea.I think i'm a bad woman...think of this kinda hei xing things.Ok..i'm gonna control myself..no matter how painful it is,i'm not gonna let myself think in such a guo fen way again.

want to cry

Yest and today's shock add together is enuff to kill me la!Gave us back all 3 papers for phy...ahem...dun need to say of course is fail la.I mean ya...expected BUT i was super bu gan xing when i find out tt i threw away 6 marks for some stupid careless mistakes!!I would haf gotten an O la!Chem paper 1 was ok la...but wat's e use?It can't possibly help pull up my paper 3 cos i predict i'll get like 3/100 or sth.Then comes gp.I was relieved when she said e whole class passed la but so wat?Just pass onli.Really regret not managing my time properly...always can't finish aq!Sianz!Today gif out maths paper...got a "D".Ya...i improved...shud be glad...but somehow i was feeling worse than ever.I mean look at my class la...4 As,7 Bs!!!It's more than half e class la!And i'm getting this kinda grade!3 marks to C...but hu cares rite?A D is a D...no matter how close it is to jump grade,it's still a D.I can't believe it...my class is improving so fast tt it's getting scary.Even tk is getting a B...so wad am i doing?The fact tt i'm lagging behind by a lot makes me really uneasy.Miss Kalidas is another one tt is stressing me out.I appreciate tt she pays attention to my results but i feel really disturbed when she always tell me to book consultation wif her."wt...am i seeing u on any of these days?"I feel super extra la!Xiao xi's gp is graduate le...no need to worry...again i'm e one hu's lagging behind.Oh man...stress until i can't breadth...now i noe y i can't slp le.My O lvl feeling is coming back...i think i going to break down soon.Hopelessness is overwhelming me...i can't hang on any longer.

Itazura na Kiss

Was watching "Er Zhuo Ju Zhi Wen" for e 6th time.I dunno why...but i always can't control my emotions when i reach e 2nd disc.My tears will unknowingly flow at e part when qing zi was running for the marathon.Her ankle was hurt but she endured.It was bcos of her motivation ba...she keep telling herself tt ru jiang is waiting for her at e ending pt...so no matter how xing ku she felt at tt pt...she ran on.Can't stand myself eh...i'm so emotional.But i really admire qing zi's determination.So many times she was hurt by ru jiang's cold attitude but she nvr gave up.I seriously wun be able to be like her...how can one cont to put in her heart and soul even though she noes tt her efforts are going into e sea?Hmm...oh ya...toked to him yest online.He agreed to meet me and my fren over there in hk.He said"if i'm going back la".Yep...so i really pray tt his passport will be done by tt time.If this dream is really going to come true..i'm gonna haf soooooooo much fun lo!Haha!Imagine we can go theme parks together...shopping...eat...play!Yeah~~!!Looking forward to dec manz!

Be Optimistic:)

Haha!Just read xiao xi's blog...think tt she's a big SHA GUA!Aiya...for movies,it's either a happy or sad ending mah.Moreover u also said b4...i'm an optimistic person mah...i haf all sorts of ways to cheer myself up!Erm...for example i can rewatch e vcds i haf at home(although i've already watched for over 4/5 times)...then i can also go download songs!My fav songs!Ahaha...i just downloaded my beloved 5566's song>>白色花漾 and also Eason Chan's>>新美人主义!!!Both are really nice songs!I feel energetic all over after hearing!Hehe!It's not tt i'm not worried for my prelims la...i noe i did really bad this time.But i just keep reminding myself"Dun worry,be happy".No pt being so down now...just tell ourselves to concentrate and and put in all our effort when studying for As lo.Yep..so ben dan xiao xi dun be moody le la!At the most i wei qu yi dian...gif u e chance to study wif me lo!Haha!Honoured?K la...we chiong together k?Jia you ba:)

hate e ending sia...

Time to gif an overview on e show "Dou Yu".Last time i thot e song "Lydia" was kinda common...but now i can feel more for this song.Finished watching e last cd...felt rather upset and grey abt e world.It's not e 1st time i'm exposed to such a sad ending...but in e past e stories usually revolve around sickness,accidents or maybe some evil pple doing bad things.This show let me see how life can be so helpless...sometimes somethings are not up to us to decide...in e show yu hao entered ying bang bcos he didn't want e person tt he treasure most to get hurt again.Once he step into e circle of bad pple...it's hard for him to get out...it's not like a game whereby e kids can say dun play then dun play.It will be a beginning to a whole series of horrific and unpredictable happenings.When one need to survive in this kind of environment,she has to be extremely strong.I was asking myself...if i were in her position will i be able to hang in there?The answer is no.Somehow i dun agree wif wat xiao yan zi said in e show."Cheng Jing Shen Shen De Ai Guo Jiu Hen Xing Yun Le"Why?I dun understand.Wun they want to be wif e one they love forever?Haiya...sad la!I need some nice shows to cheer myself up!

Dou Yu

Have been watching Dou Yu these 2 days...haven't finished...but i'm already v affected by the story.At 1 pt i was so taumatised by how much xiao yan zi haf changed to adapt to e surroundings.She changed so much,did so much for yu hao...but yet he went for another girl.It's so ridiculous!Gif those stupid excuses!Sometimes i really dun understand guys.They can say tt they like a girl so much but yet they always do things without thinking abt e girl's feelings.They say they dun understand women's heart.Actually as long as u are sincere in seeking to understand and be thoughtful,u'll noe wat we need.Really hate those excuses!!!Bcos u're drunk?Bcos u were too traumatised and disheartened by e news?Then u can do those things wif another woman?Wat nonsense!Argh!kk...gotta calm down.Maybe i'm too biased.Shall cont watching and see wat's e ending.

Da Sao Chu (^@^)

2nd last paper today...and i'm already totally enjoying holiday mood!Packed all my notes back into their respective files...cleared my table and wiped clean wif wet cloth.So impressed by my ability to do house work!Ahah!Yest was Mid Autumn Festival(lunar 15 Aug)!Our family hung a string full of lanterns across e living room.Of course we didn't light em...if 1 burst into flames, my house will be at stake manz!(*~*)But we did go down to e park to play lantern and sparkles!The moon was incredibly beautiful!Feel so peaceful resting under e moonlight.My stupid bro...go and burn e grass wif e sparkles...had no choice but to shout at him.Nonetheless, we had a wonderful time together as a family.I guess many of the chinese festivals serve as a platform to bring e whole family together and enjoy Tian Lun Zhi Le.He is one example of those pple hu are not aware of the chinese tradition.Say he dun even noe it's Zhong Qiu Jie.Ben Dan!Haha!K...going off.

Starving!

Reporting:Time now is 11pm.And i still haven't eaten my dinner!!!Thx to my parents lo...say will bring back food for me...till now still haven't come back!I'm dying!!!In e mean time...i watched a canto movie.It's really touching.Abt this 3 kids...their parents were killed by gansters and they were sent to an orphanage.The younger bro and sis were taken by 2 diff families.Cos they are brought up by rich families so they had e chance to live a luxurious life.But e eldest bro...he escaped frm e orphanage and became a gangster.Later,he found out tt e boss of e gang was actually e guy hu killed his parents.He purposely act loyal and stuff and became e most valued shou xia.One day e boss told him to kidnap a rich guy which turn out to be his younger bro.The boss say he had to kill him after getting e ransom.He secretly let his bro go.After which he killed e boss...but was badly injured by another gangster.The story is really touching and i cried like mad.Haha!Yeah~my dinner is back.Shall end here.

Argh!!!Prelims!!!

Mon marks the start of e preliminary examination.I was super stressed lo...dint sleep well e nite b4.It's like i dowan to leave e sch with atrocious results mah...so keep doing last minute revision at nite.Shit la!Shudn't even haf bothered to kai ye che lo...e papers so difficult...got study no study also no use!Esp tt phy paper 1 and 2!Totally stunned and traumatised!It's not abt time...got time also wun be able to do well la!The qsns are like...ok i dun even noe how to describe.I onli noe i see e qsns onli i gong diao!Ok...haha...cheer up!At least this prelims also gave me e chance to tok to him thru e fone!hehe...i mean i didn't do it on purpose la...i got qsn then i ask lo.Then i found tt he's really smart la.A lot of things he get it so quickly but i'm like man ban pai.Sian!Now i noe why he's in tt TIAN CAI class!Yep...prelims is coming to an end...2 more papers!Yeah~~After which i'm going to haf a gd long break!Go for movies wif xiao xi~"Innocent Steps"Haha!Saw e advert today...hmm...looks nice!Other than tt>>>PRIDE!Miss 2 episodes lo!So bu gan xing!Of course i'm also going to slp slp slp!!!!Dunno since when sleeping haf become my hobby!Can sleep till 12pm in e afternoon on Sundays!Pro!K...going off...lunch time:)

彩虹眼泪

93.3 have accompanied me through e mugging days.Ok...sometimes e songs they play is quite no taste and quite repeated...but at least i feel less sian listening to e radio.Err...got this song i heard by sweety.It's rite now e No.8 on e long hu bang.Title:彩虹眼泪.I just think tt e lyrics are rather meaningful...

他总是不了解
我那些假装的无所谓
关于那些是是非非
爱的疲惫又有谁能陪
我总不够坚决
才会在爱里面绕圈圈
我学得会口是心非不要流泪
天上的眼泪
他好像懂我的心碎
懂得轻轻给我一些安慰
我们应该要了解
伤了心有种爱的美
天上的彩虹
总出现在天晴雨过
我已经懂得轻轻的放手
就算我觉得难过
你会在我身边守候
陪我一起去看彩虹
你总是不自觉
才会在爱里面绕圈圈
让他去飞
留个泪水
才能学会擦干了成长的泪水
搭上了幸福的地铁
远方有个声音
那一定会是你

Pleasant Surprise

Went online just now.Saw him.He did some vast changes to his nick.Haiz...i need to abide to my own rules so i dint tok to him.But guess wat?Someone came to tok to me while i was checking mail.Who?ahaha...Gg lo!Was really surprised cos he seldom go online de.He's graduating today!So happy for him!Then he gave me a lot of support for e coming exam.Yah...and he actually tell me tt he's going to Paris wif grandma soon.Wha i was like,"u make me feel like i'm in a prison leh!"Haha!Then he say,"oops!sorry sorry!"Haiyo!He's always so toot la...i joking onli he so serious for wat?He ended off by asking if i'm going bk to hk in dec.Hmm...actually i also dunno eh...now onli think abt exams...other things can't be bothered yet.Yep...i was really glad tt he came to tok to me la...cos i was super bored.Tmr last day of sep hols liao...haha issit a holiday anyway?Argh!Wadeva!Go slp liao...fan zheng burn mid nite oil also confirm cannot finish e syllabus.Goodnitez!

so tired...

So tired abt studies...so tired abt love...so tired abt life!Still left wif loads of stuff to mug but there's onli 2 days left...haha!Sounds like a joke...principal and teachers will always nag us to stay away frm doing last minute work...wat now then study also no use liao...haiz i guess i can be those bad studying example.I wonder wat are those RJ and HCJ pple doing now...maybe they already finished doing their TYS long long time ago and they can haf a gd break now.Wha seh!Are they human?Sianz!Then comes another troubling thing.It's like y am i bothered abt such things now?I muz be mad!I called him to ask hw...i dun mean to be a nuisance la.Hmm...maybe i think too much.I always picture a time when we can tok to each other wif so much happiness tt no one will feel annoyed.I decided tt rite now i shall just haf a long long break and not haf any contact wif him.Totally forbidden!Haiz...yah then i'll feel more like in a prison.When will this be over?I dun look forward to after prelims...cos i can foresee how hectic life will be even after prelims.But on e other hand...after As means a complete fullstop to jc life.Life is really full of mixed feelings.How i wish i can fly out of this confusion.I got this picture of a magical land in my mind.Sth like e one in howl's moving castle...a huge piece of grassland...a cottage...with wonderful weather.I can lie on e grass on my own,forgetting all my troubles.I can just lie there without anything to do but admire e floating clouds.Although this is a dream but i hope tt someday it'll come true.

Dream:)

Wierd huh...updating so early in e morning.But can't afford to let e dream i had last nite slip my mind.Yest i slept v early...guess i was too tired.Ok...here it goes.My dream:Gg actually appeared at my flat.He just poped out frm e window while i was packing some toys for my bro.He was wearing a white tshirt wif jeans and he had his usual warm smile on his face.Oh yah...i dunno y i was wearing my sch uniform...but he commented tt i look nice in it.Haha!He took me to this carnival thingie.The place looked like some mexican cowboy era.Then we went to play this game...there is this bar tt we hafta hang on to and slide along e rope kind.Yah...and e rope is so so tall and long...si bei scary la!Then he held my hand and we slide together.Stunned lo!It was so sweet!*End*I think i was influenced by PRIDE...think too much liao!Haha...SIAO!Nonetheless it was an unforgettable dream:)

So much to say...

Yep..haven't been updating for a while so here i am!Of course i gotta pen down on my wonderful,memoriable,lovely,touching and heart warming conversation wif him...ahahahaha!I voiced out wat was in my mind for a long long time.I told him tt he was too secretive...not willing to share things wif pple(o.O)Gosh!!!can't beleive i actually had e guts to say it.And most surprising of it all was tt he promised to share stuff wif me in e future...hehe!!!AHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!I feel like i'm in my dreams!!!tt nite my mouth could hardly close la!!!Smiling and smiling non-stop...xiao xi would haf encountered my madness through e fone...haha...i can sense e "CAN'T STAND U!" tone:)I was on top of e world...but e thought of prelims kept me under control(aiya...it is too sadistic le la!).But nvm...i shall treat it as a motivation so tt it will add some colours to my mugging days.

The next day was "SOFRA"!At 1st really didn't wan to go...me and xiao xi so sian...wanna slack at home sia!Budden heard tt all will be attending...if we abesent then super extra.So xiao xi and i toked over e fone for 1 HR to discuss on our attire(which turn out to be just tshirt and jeans..haha..)Actually i dun really mind wat i wear...i'm more concerned abt e pimples lo!Then i dun haf a good make up kit...can't block!Sian!But just now see e photos...haha heng e flash v bright...can't see my pimples!YEAH~~e sofra experience was gd la...e food was gd and after which also had a nice cup of coffee(wif icecream~:) at terra!

Time for today's GP Paper!Haha my tone sounds happy ya?Because i did well?NO!cos i'm gonna FAIL!!!!Haiya...essay out of pt...wat to do?Then AQ also cannot finish...so dead!After tt we are supposed to haf consultation wif mr neo...but he so so late la!Me and xiao xi stone so long then he came.Gd tt he got bring us sweets la...if not he DIE!ahahahah!Go home liao i let my parents see e class photos...then i ask my mama how cs look.Hu noes she'll say this kinda thing!"Look so naughty...like some china boy"Wha thanks lo!Dunno wat to say!haha ok...tt's abt it:)