Wat to do?I seriously need to depend on him to teach me prog...but i dun wan him or anyone else to misunderstand our relationship.Can't there be virtue frenship behind helping each other wif sch work?I haf been thinking v hard for alternatives lately...like hu else is pro enuff and of course free to entertain me.But there's none la.I wan to finish e assign fast cos i noe when sch reopen there'll be no time to do liao. Sigh!!!Tis really sux la...and there are still how many assignments left...too many to count...tt means i'll still need a lot of his help.I'm afriad when i can'tstand it liao...i may tan pai wif him.And if our frenship is affected...tt'll be equvalent to dooms day for my prog.Of course...everything has a solution and i dun need to b so pessimistic abt things...chuan dao qiao tou zi ran zhi.And i hope everything will be fine and i can sail thru tis sem smoothly.

miss those times

Half a sem gone...i wonder how i motivated myself to go to a place as dead as sch...esp now being in a diff class as him.Today i feel like jotting down the times i spent wif him...i guess after a long time i'll still want to recall these happy moments.Here it goes...i actually dunno anyone frm my previous class...except my 1 of my orientation fren...so i started off being strangers to everyone.As for him...i nvr tok to him at all...onli noe he existed in my class.The 1st time i toked to him was a super stupid situation...was walking towards e busstop...saw him going to board a bus...his face seems more familiar when i got nearer...then he also looking at me...so i ask"u frm my class rite?"Then he "yah"...and i just"orh hello" and walk off.Haiz...guess sometimes i really damn toot la.Next time i got contact wif him was during lab.We were lagging quite a lot...and our data also v wrong...was rather desperate at tt moment.He finished fast and was going to go off...then my partner ask him how to do...so he came over...then he look at me and said my name...was rather shocked...like y he noe my name when i dun even noe hu he is sia?anyway i dint tok to him also cos really not shou wif him.3rd time was after tut...i stayed back to copy hw(haha...tt always happen)...then he and 1 other guy dunno y stayed behind...then he said my name again...i mean tis is e 2nd time liao lo...can't possibly hack care and just act like i nvr hear anything rite?so i ask him wat's his name lo...then he and tt guy came over...and i asked for their no...cos i seriously need more sources of academic help...was desperately finding tutors.Nvr used tt no until 1 day i dunno how to go to e lab venue...so msged him.After which...we always went for lunch tgt as a grp so got closer.When we were studying for exam i asked for his msn so tt i can ask him hw online.There was tis time when i was waiting for my fren...he sat wif me and we chatted for quite some time until my fren called me.Then got 1 lect...he was e 1st 1 to walk into e row of seats...e rest of us follow...then i walk until e seat which is spoilt...so no choice gottta skip tt and sit on e next 1(as in 1 seat away frm e grp)...then he saw and walked all e way back to tt spoilt seat and sat down next to me.Other pple were like telling him tt there's no table...but he tell em say he dun need it cos he use laptop.Was really happy deep inside la. K...think i stop here 1st...seems like there are still quite a bit.

Fate is such a wierd thing...it'll come when u least expect it.Yest after e project discussion at my fren's room, i need to take internal bus to 1 of e bus stop and change to public bus.Actually wanted to get down 1 stop b4 e actual 1 cos it's less crowded...but when i wan to press e bell i found tt there's no bell around my seat.No choice gotta get down at e next stop.As e bus was getting near e stop,guess hu i saw?Yes...e 1 i wan to see most in sch.But somehow i dun wish to see him at tt moment...i also dunno y i got tis wierd thot.So e bus stopped in a position where he'l definitely get up through e back door.I quickly walked towards e front door...but....there's tis other guy hu wan to go down through e back...so i was blocked on e corridor.Guess e guy saw tt i was determined to get to e front door...so he gave in and turned around.And i managed to siam.Y sia?I also dun understand myself...didn't i wan to see him all e while?Told my mom abt tis...she say it's common to act tt way...she also pted out tt yuan fen is just so miraculous...dun need to purposely create chances or watsoever.Dunno if all these is planned or wat...but was happy tt at least i get to see him on such a meaningful day.

troubled

Sch is getting more and more draining...all thanks to prog.An apple a day keeps e doctor away...but a lab assignment a wk is capable of killing all my brain cells la!I gotta stay back after sch to pia lab...ok i muz be thankful tt at least some experts are there to guide me...but u noe..they're called experts for a reason...basically they're frm a world totally diff frm mine...it's really v discouraging when they keep pting out tt my foundation is weak lo.Come on la...i'm already trying v hard to think le leh...imagine after 1 whole day of lessons...i'm like half dead la.So i faced a com screen frm 4 all e way till 8 plus...of course e people left 1 by 1 until it was left wif me and him.And yes...he's 1 of e experts i ws mentioning abt.Ok i'm really grateful tt he's willing to stay back till so late wif me...can see tt he's really tired and he still gotta pia his own hw.But i was feeling v uncomfortable...kept psychoing myself tt finishing e assignment is e most impt thing...just bear wif it.Hai...he's been doing quite a lot of stuff lately...like waiting for me to go to class tgt...volunteer to help me wif my work...taking bus tgt...basically there isn't a day whereby i wun see him la.Tis is getting crazy...i mean pple are saying we're tgt and stuff like he's my bf.I really hate it la...but some sub i really need his help lo...tt's no doubt.It's getting more and more awkward when i'm wif him.It's not tt i'm feeling confused...i got a clear mind and a clear heart...i noe hu exactly i like...and i really hope tt we can remain as frens like in e past.I told my mom abt tis too...she tell me to put studies in e 1st place so if i need to ask him abt sch work...just dun let e wall hinder me.Well..easy to say but hard to do sia.