a brave step to take

Went out to watch death note wif my rc squadmates. It wasn't as exciting as expected...but at least it's a form of relaxation. Had lunch after e movie and did some catching up. YC say she quit sch liao...cos she got pregnant wif some guy in her hall and now gotta stay at home and rest. Really funni to see her keep insisting while it's damn obvious tt she's lying. Nevertheless it was an enjoyable moment wif my squadmates. At e mrt station i finally heard frm SH tt she really quit sch liao...but it's cos she wan to go to aust to study medicine. Quite a shocking news for me...i really admire pple hu haf such determination and bravery. Was thinking since YC also can make up her mind and put her dreams into action...y couldn't i? Instead of staying in a course tt dun interest me at all...and cont struggling wif those disgusting modules...y i can't i just take e step to pursue wat i really want? Maybe i shud really gif it a try and apply for nyp...if i really get expelled frm sch at least i'm not tt lost.

the gap between us

For the past wk,we practically haf no contact at all.Mon we sat together during tut...but i didn't tok to him.He also didn't haf lunch wif us.The other days...it's either we have diff tut or we didn't sit together.Online we also nvr tok to each other.Just now he msg me and ask me to lend him maths notes...guess he still feels closest to me in class.But everything seems to be in e past.I still rmb tt day he bought lunch for me and we sat together to eat and tok...it feels really happy and natural.But now...i dunno y e feeling of awkwardness comes in...and i just couldn't face him like e past.He ask me y do i seem so far to him now.Wat shud i say?I myself couldn't find e ans to this qsn.

可惜他有女朋友

他都不算很有趣
为何我遇见别人都闷极入睡
碰见他总是自然谈下去
让人幻想可以后谈下去
结合成伴侣

可惜他有爱侣
还可怎么争取
投契极得不到世人的允许
常常望着别人幸福
令我更唏嘘
难道世界上美男全部被捕
漏网的跑到哪里
男生稍一可取
全已是某君的夫婿或爱侣
仍然像我的未嫁的又爱得起谁
唯一符合理想的得七岁

他真的有点似我
旁人要是太闷时安静地就坐
看见他今夜突然围着我
话题像剪不断地围着我
我又怕什么

然而像我的未嫁的
又会分到谁
谁想凡是舞会都单身去