yest was my bro's taekwondo exam and my dad video recorded e whole thing.one thing he dint notice was dat it was e same tape dat he used to record my 2nd choir concert.he played e tape during lunch so dat i could see how he did for his exam.then we found out tt a large part of e concert was overlapped by e new stuff he recorded.e bad news is dat he haven't burn e tape into vcd yet...so dat part of e concert is gone for gd.i treasured tt concert a lot...it's e last time i perform as a choir and of course it's also e last time i stand on e same stage as him.i still rmb during e 1st concert...all i felt was nervousness.but for e 2nd time...i wasn't scared anymore.i told myself i hafta treasure every moment i had on dat stage.for e last part of e concert,i was standing at e back...covered by pple in front...i noe my actions wun b seen by e audience.i took frequent glances at him cos he's standing rite in front of me.looking at his back while singing...knowing clearly tt tis will b e last time.i dun blame my dad at all...just felt kind of ke xi.it's like telling me to forget...let those memories be gone like e recordings.i dun regret liking him.i think he's a gd guy.have been watching a v touching jap show these few days.it gave me a lot of qi shi.life is not just abt boy and ger relationships...there are many things tt we shud treasure around us...like family and frens.i guess i haf been too particular and stubborn abt stuff aft i went to uni.i think it's more impt to love wad is in front of my eyes rite now and not put so much time in thinking abt relationships.therefore i will treasure all e frens i have...i'll also gif more time to my family.i think i'll try my best to catch up on e times i lost or wasted wif these pple.mom's bdae is coming soon.tis time i'm gonna do sth and stop being selfish.

haf been thinking of wierd things lately...i also dunno y i am bothered by actions of someone i dun even haf feelings for.mom says it's natural to feel tis way even if he's just a fren...is tt so?i guess i've nvr tried being treasured by a person so much b4...e feeling is just so unforgettable.like calling to ensure my safety when i go home v late...accompanying me to places even though he has nth to do there...worrying if i printed my stuff...and many more.At tt pt i felt scared...and even hoped tt he can stop doing it.But rite now...somehow i missed those times...sometimes i even hoped to see his msgs.wat the hell am i doing?am i wavering?i noe it's common for guys to tok abt pretty gers...in fact i dun really mind such things unless he's e 1 i like.but now i feel kinda pissed off when he says such things...is tis jealousy?my brain is going haywire...hope time is really going to bring me back to reality.