Feel so Gd!

Friday!!!My favourite!!!Usually fri's timetable is sadistic but today it's different!And i think hor...my luck today is not bad lo!!Firstly, i wasn't late for sch today...no need for 100 m sprint frm mrt to bus stop.1st lesson...PE!I was actually rather disturbed when mr chua told us to play captain's ball...cos i have absolutely no ball sense!Assigning grps is another thing i hate...to e guys i'm like 1 of those lousy players tt they consider as "ban jiao shi".Most often then not...it's cos me and xiao xi package deal...they wan xiao xi then die die hafta take me in de.But today, our grp haf 3 gals...joy,xiao xi and me...e chance of winning is so high lo!haha!budden guess our grp's defense damn lousy la...yq anyhow pass also score...feel so bu gan xing!!Nomatter wad...it's e best captain's ball game i've ever played.I managed to block justin's ball...thx to xiao xi hu taught me not to stand in front of e person while defending...haha!And summore today's ball is v diff...it's softer and smaller so i'm able to grip it better.Last time always use volleyball...too hard and big la...hate it manz!Haha...today's game was so fun...perspired a lot but v happy!During recess,our class had to take class photo.We spent quite a lot of time in e toilet "making up"...after all it's e last class photo we're taking(quoted frm xiao xi).Budden i thought we could have chosen a more interesting place as our background...our pose was so orderly...just hope tt wun turn out too boring.So grateful tt there isn't chem remedial...me and xiao xi can go whitesands for our wonderful lunch!1st time try e "mi fen guo"...actually was aiming for e egg onli la...but overall it's not bad too~!Cos i was in a gd mood so e journey back home seem to be rather enjoyable.On bus 293, i was sitting on e vertical chair...cos got 3 seats so got 2 spaces beside me.Then came this AJ guy...sat 1 seat away frm me.Wha!Dunno issit he just finish pe or wad...super stinko la!I was so so trying hard not to breath...dunno issit i hold my breadth until v obvious...he kept looking me.Scary~heng i alight very early...haha!Yah...tt's abt it...shall end here.

Reminiscence~

Feel like a huge load off my shoulder now!Conquered so much within e past 2 days...maths lect test yest and chem lect test today.Most importantly,parents meeting session wif e VP is finally over!Toking abt e meeting wif mrs crossley...gosh...it was sooooo unbelievably long and incredibly embarassing la!I can imagine how super confused mrs crossley feels lo...my parents say everything i also rebutt...it's not like i purposely "chang fan diao" la budden my parents also v wad la...say until i so faultless...as if e teachers are always e bad guys...make me feel v paiseh lo!Nomatter wad...it's over!Happy happy happy~!On Monday,i made a v important decision...i'm gonna gif up on him.Thinking back,i wonder y everything have changed in such a short period of abt 3 months.In the past, i feel so heated up and excited abt sch just bcos of his presence.Online no matter how cold his answers were,i still feel like i'm on top of e world.But as time goes by...and i see how he's so fan toking to me.Really hate this kinda forced conversation...and he's just like gifing "orh"answers.I mean wat for?If i still dunno how to zi dong and die die go and tok to him,i'll b v disgusted wif myself la.In my dreams...a perfect conversaion will be one which we have endless topics to tok abt and there'll definitely be no space for any awkward pauses.Well...yah it's too idealistic but e way we tok is defintely nth near tt la.Actually i guess i have noticed it long ago...but i refuse to accept e fact ba.That day when my senior say"huh?it's like a forced conversation!"My heart really broke lo...it's like i was hiding all e while and now someone finally pushed e reality right at my face.Xiao xi also thinks tt i shudn't be wasting my time anymore.Then i told myself...yah "dang ju zhe mi"...since now my frens are saying e same thing,i think i had to believe it.I was thinking if xiao xi can do it,i also can.The next day(tues) during phy lect, he walked right pass our class...i forced myself not to look...hao xing tong...really hen tong.At nite, i focused fully on chem revision and didn't go online.I guess if i can continue to keep this up,i'll be able to make it.Ah~god bless me ba!

Gif me a break!

It has been a long long day.Wake up early in the morning to carry tables and chairs in sch...make me perspire like mad.Then we had assembly in the hot sun...talking abt this...there was sth really funny...e councilor announced,"Today's assembly plaza will be at e assembly plaza!"Wha he must be still in his dreamland lo!haha!Oh yah...and tt glenn ar...seriously dunno wat's his prob leh...keep pin pointing me.Haiyo~slap his face ar!During chem tutorial we got bk our transition test.Got 13 which is AO pass...normally i'll feel damn happy la...but cos they say AO and F graders need to take retest...wha then i was super sian diao lo!Lack 1/2 mark!Wat the hell!Heng after tt mr wong lenient a bit...gif me tt 1/2 mark...wha it was really "a gift frm god"(quoted frm miss kalidas)!Was kinda happy for xiao xi and myself!Why?cos we finally made it:)Budden whether i can keep tt up is another prob lo...so fast happy...haiya!Me and xiao xi, e 2 hardworking little gals pia all e way until gp consultation.It was super tiring la...can't keep my eyes open...slept at 2 e nite b4!The gp consultation was enriching la...learnt a lot.But she was so super frank la...my morale is like...drop to e bottom of e cliff and she muz still throw summore stone down...scared i not dead enuff!Now it's like non of my subjects can jian ren la!I dun understand e sentence "si er hou sheng"...how can a person be so dead and still have e energy to propel forward?Where will my motivation come frm when every aspect in my life is falling apart?Oh god...really hope this can be over soon!

Boredom

Sundays are getting so boring nowadays!Just so so SIAN!!!I really dun understand how pple can sit there and do their work non stop...my attention span is like...zero?Can't focus at all...head feel like bursting...especially when u can't do every qsn tt u attempt...super demoralised!What am i going to do if this is e A lvl paper?Sit there and stone?Are the qsns too tough?Am i thinking too much?Yest went for yihui's bdae party.Saw yihui's father so happy...i was thinking"yihui must have been a really guai gal for her father to feel so pleased and fang xing abt her".In fact she have always been a v systematic and organised gal...really deserve e gd grades.It's a matter of a stable foundation...jc1 shud not haf been a slack yr.I dint attempt chem and phy tutorials wif effort last yr...once i find difficulty in doing then i stop...jc2 then i noe e importance of e tutorials...but it's kinda late.Now i'm really scared...looking at e calender i noe i'm running out of time.I'll try and do wat i can now and hope tt "it's not a hopeless case" like wat miss lai said.

Exciting manz!

Yest nvr blog but actually sth really wonderful happened:)We ended sch at 4.15...he's ending at 5.It's actually rather impossible for us to meet la.Nevertheless i went for a late lunch wif xiao xi at white sands.I was finishing e last few strands of noodles when suddenly my six sense told me to look at my watch...it was around 5.15.I quickly finish and rushed down...dint even go for my toilet routine to wash mouth...chiong all e way.Actually i do noe how slim e chance of seeing him is la...but tt flame of passion just will not die.Indeed,i saw his figure amongst the bushes...thought my eyes were tricking me but NO!!!!!!IT WAS HIM:)We really you yuan la...no doubt!tt xiao xi was even more excited than me la...help me stalk him wif all her effort...haha!Saw him sat down at e blue sector on e mrt.Just can't oppress e urge to go play wif him.We sat somewhere near him...was hoping to know where he gets down.But i alight at where?TAMPINES!!!Goodness lo!nvm...so i passed on this noble job to my hao jie mei.She did a really gd job lo..although i noe i tt e pple on e mrt muz be thinking wat is this wierd gal doing...HAHA!!!Ok..moving on to today's part.We had a really tough day manz!All double periods...and worse of all we need to do a GP essay plus a Physics mock paper!Kill me lo!Why is our fri timetable liddat?And i really hate jj to e core lo!Argh!!!No $ no $...excuse me lo...u're e treasurer leh...make me go around and borrow $...u go and die suan le!Then tell me to return e change also cannot say in a nicer way."eh!ni yao huan wo qian rite?wo gei ni $44 leh!"Wha wadeva lo!Like wat he once told me..."bastard" is e word to describe u!Shall stop rambling abt him..spoil my mood.After sch while hafing lunch...saw him at e canteen..haha...feel so so happy!Keeps me energetic all e way until 4 plus!Yup...like him so much!Ok...shall end here.

Day of Mixed Feelings

A SUPER bad news at e start of e day...i'm one of the 9 pple hu need to see the pincipal...or maybe i shud say i'm e stupidest amongst e girls.Feel like dying sia!Stunned...Helpless...Scared...Disheartened...i was giving out maths notes when mr neo read out e names.I would have cried on e spot if i could.Really dun wan to tok to anyone.Kept asking justin abt e procedures...all these reminds me of my experinece of meeting e principal in tkgs...e sadness really overwhelms me.Can imagine how disapponited my parents would feel.I noe i'm being very bad to xiao xi...but my feeling at tt pt was like i'm e odd one out...e worst!Saw xiao boy with a terribly ugly haircut...if it was a normal day i would be teasing xiao xi like mad lo...but guess i'm not in e mood la. The day dragged on and worse still elongated by mr wong...telling us to finish e tutorial in sch.The turning pt came when kexin told me abt him...haha...was really brightened up!Gave me e courage to go home and tell my parents abt e news...although it was really hard to kai kou.Today's my bro's b'dae!Can eat cake!Budden guess wad?Chem test tmr!!!Think i gotta eat and study at e same time!Argh!!!Sadist ar~!Too much to do...think i can onli "ambush" at a later time...haha...yah shall end here.

Kick Start

Hah!Can't believe i actually listened to tt Xiao Xi and started writing such things.Used to own a blog in secondary school but u noe...almost everyone knows my address...wat the...no pt writing...think by now it's already rotting!Well~but this will be a fresh start!No one will have the permission to view this...except my close friends!Hmm...today is not a gd day.Monday blues~~and worst of all is tt my pimple season have arrived!Haiz...wat again!Seriously dunno wad to do about it leh...so super irritating!I noe it's dumb...but somehow i dunno how to face pple during pimple seasons...dun wan to tok...dun wan to smile...just dun wan to do anything and hurry up go home.tt's y classmates say go buy present i also dun wan to go.Early this morning...found tt our tables are moved...haha isn't it better.I completely 'heck care' him now lo...so no big deal!As for physics...Argh!!had to taste e feeling of standing outside e class again...it's not like i nvr do work still think tt e teacher is unfair la...but i ask myself...i wasn't slacking at home lo...feeling kinda annoyed.I'm like in a daze e whole day...got scolded by my papa for forgetting to close e tap.Yah...cos i left it on for 20min...haiz wat am i doing sia!I think hor...my bad mood originated from those pimples!Really hope they can just vanish when i wake up tmr^@^