Reminiscence~

Feel like a huge load off my shoulder now!Conquered so much within e past 2 days...maths lect test yest and chem lect test today.Most importantly,parents meeting session wif e VP is finally over!Toking abt e meeting wif mrs crossley...gosh...it was sooooo unbelievably long and incredibly embarassing la!I can imagine how super confused mrs crossley feels lo...my parents say everything i also rebutt...it's not like i purposely "chang fan diao" la budden my parents also v wad la...say until i so faultless...as if e teachers are always e bad guys...make me feel v paiseh lo!Nomatter wad...it's over!Happy happy happy~!On Monday,i made a v important decision...i'm gonna gif up on him.Thinking back,i wonder y everything have changed in such a short period of abt 3 months.In the past, i feel so heated up and excited abt sch just bcos of his presence.Online no matter how cold his answers were,i still feel like i'm on top of e world.But as time goes by...and i see how he's so fan toking to me.Really hate this kinda forced conversation...and he's just like gifing "orh"answers.I mean wat for?If i still dunno how to zi dong and die die go and tok to him,i'll b v disgusted wif myself la.In my dreams...a perfect conversaion will be one which we have endless topics to tok abt and there'll definitely be no space for any awkward pauses.Well...yah it's too idealistic but e way we tok is defintely nth near tt la.Actually i guess i have noticed it long ago...but i refuse to accept e fact ba.That day when my senior say"huh?it's like a forced conversation!"My heart really broke lo...it's like i was hiding all e while and now someone finally pushed e reality right at my face.Xiao xi also thinks tt i shudn't be wasting my time anymore.Then i told myself...yah "dang ju zhe mi"...since now my frens are saying e same thing,i think i had to believe it.I was thinking if xiao xi can do it,i also can.The next day(tues) during phy lect, he walked right pass our class...i forced myself not to look...hao xing tong...really hen tong.At nite, i focused fully on chem revision and didn't go online.I guess if i can continue to keep this up,i'll be able to make it.Ah~god bless me ba!