troubled

Sch is getting more and more draining...all thanks to prog.An apple a day keeps e doctor away...but a lab assignment a wk is capable of killing all my brain cells la!I gotta stay back after sch to pia lab...ok i muz be thankful tt at least some experts are there to guide me...but u noe..they're called experts for a reason...basically they're frm a world totally diff frm mine...it's really v discouraging when they keep pting out tt my foundation is weak lo.Come on la...i'm already trying v hard to think le leh...imagine after 1 whole day of lessons...i'm like half dead la.So i faced a com screen frm 4 all e way till 8 plus...of course e people left 1 by 1 until it was left wif me and him.And yes...he's 1 of e experts i ws mentioning abt.Ok i'm really grateful tt he's willing to stay back till so late wif me...can see tt he's really tired and he still gotta pia his own hw.But i was feeling v uncomfortable...kept psychoing myself tt finishing e assignment is e most impt thing...just bear wif it.Hai...he's been doing quite a lot of stuff lately...like waiting for me to go to class tgt...volunteer to help me wif my work...taking bus tgt...basically there isn't a day whereby i wun see him la.Tis is getting crazy...i mean pple are saying we're tgt and stuff like he's my bf.I really hate it la...but some sub i really need his help lo...tt's no doubt.It's getting more and more awkward when i'm wif him.It's not tt i'm feeling confused...i got a clear mind and a clear heart...i noe hu exactly i like...and i really hope tt we can remain as frens like in e past.I told my mom abt tis too...she tell me to put studies in e 1st place so if i need to ask him abt sch work...just dun let e wall hinder me.Well..easy to say but hard to do sia.