i'm hopeless

Was in the later train this morning...dashed down e elevator and ran all e way out.Heng xiao xi and bei weren't angry.Then kex said"hao xi zai hou tou!"Actually i kinda guessed wat she meant le la...but not really sure...not tt i'm slow lo!We then made a joke out of ourselves by running after bus 3 like some mad women.Bei kept saying"bu yong jing,you yuxi,you yuxi!"Made me laugh like siao!Hop on to e bus too fast...dint even see him.Today's timetable was super jia lat!Double lect for all 3 sub...wif phy being e 1st in e list.After e short and insignificant recess break,we had to cont wif 4 lect in a row!We even haf to take a maths test!Making things worse...i found his class sitting rite in front of us...wif him being at e extreme end.U noe i'll feel super uneasy when he's sitting so near.After maths i was totally drained...feel as though i'm sailing in e sea..can't breadth.The chem lect was unbearably long.When e aircon stopped...i felt even more sick.Later,we waited for kex at e atrium.I thot after dragging for so long,he would haf been long gone.Then we slowly strolled out of sch.At e traffic light,kex was saying"yah...he's always e 1st to come out de".I was stilling nodding in agreement when i turned around and saw him!Goodness!My heart almost jumped out!When we were on e train,i refused to sit near his cabin.Still rmb how uncomfortable i was e previous time.Haiz...i'm really hopeless.I dun dare to tok to him face to face...see him le i'll act like and idiot.Today i felt so inferior..dunno y...dunno comparing wif hu also...just completely in a bad state.Where did my confidence go?I wan to go back to my natural and innocent self.Maybe today's just 1 of my bad days...shall take a nap now and forget all my unhappiness(^@^)